ew. i feel like a fucking  failure. today i ate
2 eggs (220 cals)
seaweed(80 cals)
plantains(50 cals)
some chips(lets estimate 250 cals)
1 apple(60 cal)
1 oreo (70 cals)
pizza crust(lets estimate 30 cals to be safe)
1 candy cane (60 cals)
total cals: 820.
ugh. i'm fucking disgusting.
i'l workout later and do a minimum of 125 sit ups.

 wow, i haven't posted in forever. i guess i was busy. the last time i posted i didn't even have braces on, and now within 6 months, i should be getting them off. finally. i think i'll go check up on everything here today. and how are you? and oh yeah, merry chirstmas! and happy holidays to those who don't celebrate it ;-)!

ohkay, i hit a bump in my life, i got pass that, but i think i may be starting up again soon. any who, i am in love w/ robert pattinson. but im not a stalker or anything lmfao. just pierced my own cartilage, like a week ago. its healing fine, just as long as my parents dont find out.;) close call yesterday though, i was changing my piercing prematurely, so naturally it bled a little, so i use t.p.  (toilet paper for those of u who dont know) and cleaned it up. rookie mistake tho, i forgot to flush it. my mom went to check for the piercing, luckily, i wasnt wearing it at the moment, so that temporarily saved my ass. but the piercing is back in, woot-woot!. i know they'll find out eventually, lets just hope they don't make me take it out tho. i guess being a minor can be quite suckish, but oh well. if anything, i'll get it re-pierced, & professionally.:)

i thought this video could cheer you up if you were in a bad mood,
hope it works.
but i need to get real, this abc thing, its not working for me.
and you know how your teeth feel weird and dry after you purge?
well i didnt and my teeth feel like that.
O_O hope its not bad.
and oh yeah 12 more days of spacers

 i got in my stupid spacers today.
they are these little blue things that make room for braces
earlier i was all yay because i would lose weight
but now it hurts
later on i might sneak some pain killers from the kitchen
i am starting a 15 day countdown
but i would wear braces for about 2 1/2 years
first my top teeth 
then bottom

today was horrible .
i ate :
mozerella sticks
pretzels
waffle w/ ice cream/ syrup
i dont think i will be eating anymore today.
and if i eat tommorow, it will all be veggies, fruit, smoothies, and other liquids.
nothing other than that.
and what sucks is that every 1-2 months i have to go to a nutritionist bcuz before all of this, my weight was on the 85th percent tile.
i know, pathetic. but its lower now, of course. but i just want to have to stop going. its soooooo annoying. gawd. and im so jealous of my friend because today i found out that my friend has a b.m.i. of 14.5

today i had
a banana
an apple
cheezedoodles
its still
potatoe
granola bar
i know its sounds like a lot, but i wouldnt be eating it if it had a lot of calories.

well my friend is coming to my sleepover,
but not to my party.
she is blowing me off for an ice skating party.
im gunna have another girl come to my party though.
and bleh, im gunna have to load up on shit because of the cake.
at least its a good flavor???

mmm...
my birthday is sunday.
i dont know what im doing yet.
i was planning on having a sleepover with a friend, but she has a 'dinner' to attend. she might come. i would say fuck the dinner. its a dinner with a girl at school, who we see everyday. supposodly, their parents are rlly gd friends. but i dont understand that if they only see eachother like once a month. it was supposed to be my day. and maybe its just meant to be, i just dislike that my friend luvs hangin with my brothers, not in a luv kinda way, just like a weird funny kind of way. she prefers to hang out with them more than me. but i guess that is what happens when you only hav 1 gd friend. i hang with other pple, but i dont throw big parties.

i take twilight, new moon, eclipse, breaking dawn, and a clique series book.